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931 Denarii of Regret

Wrote by Lucius Aurelius Felix
Romae, Idibus Ianuariis, anno DXXIV ab Urbe condita, anno Domini CCLXXI

By the immortal gods, who poured red wine into my head?

Me, obviously.

I stumbled through the door with dignity—because how else should a man wear his toga if not like a drunken gladiator’s cloak? I saluted the lamp of Minerva, tripped over the tripod of Mercury (he smiled, I cursed), and collapsed at my desk like a free citizen should. Time to record my thoughts—or what’s left of them after four amphorae of Falernianus and two rounds of “Guess Who Belched?”

I drank with Rufus. Yes, that Rufus—friend, poet, and walking disaster. Remember, O Journal, that fateful night he fell through the ceiling? He lived in one of those sky-high flats that get neither sunlight nor shame. Trying to perform a verse by Horace (or maybe just reaching for more wine), he stepped on a basin and crashed gloriously into old Livia’s apartment below.

Straight into the arms of a marble statue of Pudicitia.

And as he later grinned, one tooth short: “The only chaste woman’s arms that ever embraced me.”

Left hand clutched an amphora, right hand flung wide for drama:

“Vita brevis, vinum longum, hic cecidi.”
— “Life is short, wine is long, here I fell.”

Slightly better than “Oops.”

I tried to tally my monthly budget. Official salary: 2,000 denarii.
But I suspect part of it vanishes into “sewer maintenance taxes” (read: wine for the aedile).

Here’s what I’ve spent so far this month:

  • Goat cheese (eaten once, dreamed about thrice): 120 denarii
  • Salted fish, as salty as my life: 230 denarii
  • Wine (unknown quantity, but deeply cherished): 540 denarii
  • Parchment, wax, reeds—because without work, there’s no bread (or wine): 180 denarii

Remaining: 930 denarii

Rent: 1,000 denarii

Conclusion: I’ll be writing extra funeral inscriptions. Maybe even my own.

At the tavern “Apud Porcum Lautum” — famous for its suspicious smell and dirty jokes — we heard this gem:

— Why don’t scribes ever marry?
— Because no woman wants to be called his tablet for life!

And:

— What did the Vestal say when she saw the statue of Priapus?
— Come in… but quietly.

I laughed like a drunken donkey. Rufus laughed into the table. A veteran vomited in a cup.

It was a fine evening.

And if I die tomorrow, let the future know:
It’s no shame to drink cheap wine, only a shame to have no one to tell your dreams to after drinking it.

My reed trembles. I shall sleep beside Apollo’s statue.

Perhaps a virtuous woman will dream of me.

Or at least one with a tray of olives.

Vivat Roma. Vale.